Another day of hell

Ok so today isnt any better than yesterday. The mind is still crazy. I didnt go to bed till 3 AM because my mind wont stop. I would love to tell you what my mind is saying, but because of lack of trust- I cant. I have been hurt to many times telling people what I feel, and then end up in a mental hospital, or lost friends. So I am just going to refrain myself. I am tired of crying, tired of this crap!